I am coming to that time in my life where I have to make the decisions about which university I am wanting to continue my tertiary studies at. There are so many things you need to consider and weigh up before you take the plunge into the wide world of being alone and studying what you will possible be doing for the rest of your life. This task is a daunting one for me to think about, not just about the location and the course but about the life i am wanting to life and be involved in.
My dream is to become a National Geographic Photographer or work on a Major Motion Picture and contribute to the creative world that I am living in. But the creative world of today is such a competitive and aggressive one I fear that i might not be good enough to survive in such a high pressure world, not to say I am not a competitive person but I tend to be aggressive in areas such as sport where I tend to enjoy winning and being able to feel the rush of winning and knowing that all the hard work you have been putting in for many years, months and days final pays off. But on the other hand I hate to loose and that utter terrible feeling of when you don't achieve the goals you set and you know why. It was because you didn't do your best - People have a habit of always telling me I have so much natural sport talent and if I just trained half as hard as other people I would go such a long way.
So I guess all I'm really tying to say is that what my mind sometimes thinks and what I actually do if often a very different case for different areas of my skills and achievements. Maybe one day I will reach that potential people believe I have.